Invasion of my privacy

So you know how I moved out of my parents' home and all and now I am currently living with my grandparents here in West Covina? Well... I still feel like my parents are trying to live with me. -__- How lame is that feeling? I move in with my grandparents thinking that I'm going to have my own room and thinking that i'll still have my own privacy, and maybe a little more freedom...but NO I don't. Ever since I started moving in here, (even before it became official) I already hear from my own mom that she's moving in with me as well. On top of that, she's gonna be sharing that empty room that I was suppose to have all to myself. As of right now, I've become very annoyed when she is around, and to have her living here makes me feel how much she doesn't trust me. AND I don't understand why I need to be "watched" when they leave my sister home alone all the way in Victorville. I mean, they need to give me a break for once, and stay with my sister until she graduates. I wanted to move out of the desert to start a new life. But my parents ruin everything.

That isn't the only thing that's annoying me, there's worst. So my parents got a letter saying that our home in Adelanto is going to get foreclosed. How and why? Well, because my parents are lagging on paying the bills. Wtf kind of shit is that? (I tend to cuss when I'm pissed) They complain and complain about saying how poor they are and how they cannot afford the house and all this stuff, but yet they go out every weekend to go gamble. When I tell them that they gamble too much and that's where they are spending their money, they refute and say that they only go there to watch other people. Wtf? They're still wasting gas no matter what. So anyways as I was saying, since my parents are getting foreclosed, both my mom and dad are bringing all their stuff inside my grandparents home. WTF RIGHT? Well my grandma told them that it was ok to keep their stuff here until they find another place, but then I don't even think they are even trying to look. SO OK the thing that annoys me the most is that, my dad has been "packing" and all their shit has been going inside my fucking room. I never have any room to myself or even to my own stuff. About 30% is all my stuff and 70% is all their shit. I feel like they are being stupid ass bums who are trying to move in here. I mean my brother made me realize that what if they live with us?! WTF IS THAT? I am not gonna tolerate having both my own MOTHER AND FATHER living in the same room as me. I'm so pissed off. I rather have them look for another place. Another thing they are letting my spoiled ass sister live with her friend up there in Victorville until she graduates. So what about MY NEEDS? They never give a fuck about what I want. Ugh.

With my mom and dad putting all their shit in my room and calling me constantly telling me to go home, or even telling me what to do and not to go out, I feel trapped. I need to get them help. I've never seen any parents as worst as they are. They need help or something. When I get the money, I swear i'll hire a Physchiatrist to help them out. They are fucking physco parents. FUCK. I WANT MY OWN PRIVACY, BUT NO.... I CAN NEVER GET WHAT I WANT. THIS shit pisses me off. Now if you look inside my room, it's plain., it full of their shit, and they pretty much own the room and don't care about me. That's why I always feel like I need to get away and I just go to my brother's room. He even gets annoyed of me when I'm over there because I'm always here. Sooner or later this ticking bomb will go off anytime soon. I rather get kicked out more than anything right now.

That's why I am who I am when it comes to bailing out on my friends who want to hang out, or even my own boyfriend. =[ But I hope you guys understand what I'm going through right now. I would love to hang out with my friends and boyfriend if it wasn't for my parents. They have ruined my social lifestyle. Life would be so much easier for me if I lived on my own, or had another kind of family. I may sound like a little dramatic girl, but it's the truth, and I don't care what anyone says about "It's because your parents love you" bullshit, they it do to torture me on purpose. I hate being the middle child of this racist, stupid, family. I need to get out of here......