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It's time

for a change... I really want things the way they are supposed to be, especially as a young adult with needs. Ugh I just don't know how to do it or how to explain or how to say it... I'm stumped but it's always on my mind. I'm trying to find a way to change things without bringing up arguments... D:

I need adviceee =[

I want...

I want my summer break already! I'm sick of school.. and I need it! ughhh

I just finished my rough draft research paper... and it's crap I can already feel it... good thing our professor lets us have two rough drafts hahaha

I swear I'll improve my essay once it's been critiqued!

Anyways time to knock out... good night!

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Why does...

...everyone get engaged at Disneyland? haha So far I knew like 3-4 couples whose future husbands proposed to them over there. It's just random! hahaha but it's ok it's cutee especially at Disneyland XD But people need to be more creative :P

I want to say congrats to Cynthia and her bf! Those two are so cute together.

Anyways I should be working on my buttloads of HW right now...

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I Hope All is Well

Have you ever had someone you know, whether they were close or not, die? It has happened to me a couple of times. I always like to browse around myspace through my friends' profiles just seeing what's been going on lately, and have you ever just wandered off their profile and started looking at people that you use to know? Yeah well that happened to me a couple of times already...

RIP Robert DeJohn(i can't remember how to spell his last name) even though I only knew him for a year during my freshman, he was a good person. He can be crazy at times but he sure did leave his mark on this world and I know everyone who is close to him will miss him.

It's amazing how many things can change after high school. I know this is all cliche with everyone talking about this kind of stuff, but it's true. Many of my friends have grown up to become who they are today. A couple of them already found their true love and got married. A couple of them started a family of their own and becoming mothers and fathers. A couple of them didn't really feel like going to college after high school, so they decided to join the military. A couple of them are trying to succeed in college, aiming for their upcoming careers. A couple of them moved away to another state, like to Hawaii and living life(I miss Karen!). A couple of them act their own age, partying it up in clubs, or just living the single life. A couple of them (no offense but I'm happy for them) have grown up to become more confident in themselves that they are in relationships. A couple of them are devoting themselves to God for the rest of their life because He is good. A couple of them have been away from God for a while, but deep inside I know He still loves them. A couple of them have started their lives all over because of a struggle in the past. A couple of them didn't even make it to grow old and become happy(RIP). A couple of them still live with their parents, but are still doing their best to get out(like me haha). A couple of them already have jobs and enough money to live on their own....

There are so many things my friends have been through after high school that it amazes me. I feel like I'm left behind... haha but hey, I can say that I moved out and no longer living in the desert? But then again, I'm also one of those people who wanted to try something new, something fresh, and I'm glad I did as well. I always always ALWAYS love keeping in touch with these people and hopefully they do the same as well! I miss you guys... but life is life... So I just hope all is well! :D

Like what Mary was saying from Hannah Montana (even though I don't watch that stuff LOL) Life is a climb...

Invasion of my privacy

So you know how I moved out of my parents' home and all and now I am currently living with my grandparents here in West Covina? Well... I still feel like my parents are trying to live with me. -__- How lame is that feeling? I move in with my grandparents thinking that I'm going to have my own room and thinking that i'll still have my own privacy, and maybe a little more freedom...but NO I don't. Ever since I started moving in here, (even before it became official) I already hear from my own mom that she's moving in with me as well. On top of that, she's gonna be sharing that empty room that I was suppose to have all to myself. As of right now, I've become very annoyed when she is around, and to have her living here makes me feel how much she doesn't trust me. AND I don't understand why I need to be "watched" when they leave my sister home alone all the way in Victorville. I mean, they need to give me a break for once, and stay with my sister until she graduates. I wanted to move out of the desert to start a new life. But my parents ruin everything.

That isn't the only thing that's annoying me, there's worst. So my parents got a letter saying that our home in Adelanto is going to get foreclosed. How and why? Well, because my parents are lagging on paying the bills. Wtf kind of shit is that? (I tend to cuss when I'm pissed) They complain and complain about saying how poor they are and how they cannot afford the house and all this stuff, but yet they go out every weekend to go gamble. When I tell them that they gamble too much and that's where they are spending their money, they refute and say that they only go there to watch other people. Wtf? They're still wasting gas no matter what. So anyways as I was saying, since my parents are getting foreclosed, both my mom and dad are bringing all their stuff inside my grandparents home. WTF RIGHT? Well my grandma told them that it was ok to keep their stuff here until they find another place, but then I don't even think they are even trying to look. SO OK the thing that annoys me the most is that, my dad has been "packing" and all their shit has been going inside my fucking room. I never have any room to myself or even to my own stuff. About 30% is all my stuff and 70% is all their shit. I feel like they are being stupid ass bums who are trying to move in here. I mean my brother made me realize that what if they live with us?! WTF IS THAT? I am not gonna tolerate having both my own MOTHER AND FATHER living in the same room as me. I'm so pissed off. I rather have them look for another place. Another thing they are letting my spoiled ass sister live with her friend up there in Victorville until she graduates. So what about MY NEEDS? They never give a fuck about what I want. Ugh.

With my mom and dad putting all their shit in my room and calling me constantly telling me to go home, or even telling me what to do and not to go out, I feel trapped. I need to get them help. I've never seen any parents as worst as they are. They need help or something. When I get the money, I swear i'll hire a Physchiatrist to help them out. They are fucking physco parents. FUCK. I WANT MY OWN PRIVACY, BUT NO.... I CAN NEVER GET WHAT I WANT. THIS shit pisses me off. Now if you look inside my room, it's plain., it full of their shit, and they pretty much own the room and don't care about me. That's why I always feel like I need to get away and I just go to my brother's room. He even gets annoyed of me when I'm over there because I'm always here. Sooner or later this ticking bomb will go off anytime soon. I rather get kicked out more than anything right now.

That's why I am who I am when it comes to bailing out on my friends who want to hang out, or even my own boyfriend. =[ But I hope you guys understand what I'm going through right now. I would love to hang out with my friends and boyfriend if it wasn't for my parents. They have ruined my social lifestyle. Life would be so much easier for me if I lived on my own, or had another kind of family. I may sound like a little dramatic girl, but it's the truth, and I don't care what anyone says about "It's because your parents love you" bullshit, they it do to torture me on purpose. I hate being the middle child of this racist, stupid, family. I need to get out of here......

Goodies?!

So I just realized that time has flew by reallyyy fast and that means that my grandparents are coming home tomorrow... can you believe that was already two and a half weeks?! I'm kinda dreading them coming back because I like the way it is right now...kind of haha.. but then excited because I hope my grandma brings my goodies! haha

I'm just looking foward to that. :P But hopefully the sizes are right and stuff because Filipinos over there are friken tiny! and I'm even tiny myself! Goodness!!! haha but yeah....once they're back, it goes back to the normal way... (no more leaving at random nights with Gus =[) lol

So yeah... on top of that...my Spring Break sucks!! I want to go to the beach or something hahaha


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