Invasion of my privacy

So you know how I moved out of my parents' home and all and now I am currently living with my grandparents here in West Covina? Well... I still feel like my parents are trying to live with me. -__- How lame is that feeling? I move in with my grandparents thinking that I'm going to have my own room and thinking that i'll still have my own privacy, and maybe a little more freedom...but NO I don't. Ever since I started moving in here, (even before it became official) I already hear from my own mom that she's moving in with me as well. On top of that, she's gonna be sharing that empty room that I was suppose to have all to myself. As of right now, I've become very annoyed when she is around, and to have her living here makes me feel how much she doesn't trust me. AND I don't understand why I need to be "watched" when they leave my sister home alone all the way in Victorville. I mean, they need to give me a break for once, and stay with my sister until she graduates. I wanted to move out of the desert to start a new life. But my parents ruin everything.

That isn't the only thing that's annoying me, there's worst. So my parents got a letter saying that our home in Adelanto is going to get foreclosed. How and why? Well, because my parents are lagging on paying the bills. Wtf kind of shit is that? (I tend to cuss when I'm pissed) They complain and complain about saying how poor they are and how they cannot afford the house and all this stuff, but yet they go out every weekend to go gamble. When I tell them that they gamble too much and that's where they are spending their money, they refute and say that they only go there to watch other people. Wtf? They're still wasting gas no matter what. So anyways as I was saying, since my parents are getting foreclosed, both my mom and dad are bringing all their stuff inside my grandparents home. WTF RIGHT? Well my grandma told them that it was ok to keep their stuff here until they find another place, but then I don't even think they are even trying to look. SO OK the thing that annoys me the most is that, my dad has been "packing" and all their shit has been going inside my fucking room. I never have any room to myself or even to my own stuff. About 30% is all my stuff and 70% is all their shit. I feel like they are being stupid ass bums who are trying to move in here. I mean my brother made me realize that what if they live with us?! WTF IS THAT? I am not gonna tolerate having both my own MOTHER AND FATHER living in the same room as me. I'm so pissed off. I rather have them look for another place. Another thing they are letting my spoiled ass sister live with her friend up there in Victorville until she graduates. So what about MY NEEDS? They never give a fuck about what I want. Ugh.

With my mom and dad putting all their shit in my room and calling me constantly telling me to go home, or even telling me what to do and not to go out, I feel trapped. I need to get them help. I've never seen any parents as worst as they are. They need help or something. When I get the money, I swear i'll hire a Physchiatrist to help them out. They are fucking physco parents. FUCK. I WANT MY OWN PRIVACY, BUT NO.... I CAN NEVER GET WHAT I WANT. THIS shit pisses me off. Now if you look inside my room, it's plain., it full of their shit, and they pretty much own the room and don't care about me. That's why I always feel like I need to get away and I just go to my brother's room. He even gets annoyed of me when I'm over there because I'm always here. Sooner or later this ticking bomb will go off anytime soon. I rather get kicked out more than anything right now.

That's why I am who I am when it comes to bailing out on my friends who want to hang out, or even my own boyfriend. =[ But I hope you guys understand what I'm going through right now. I would love to hang out with my friends and boyfriend if it wasn't for my parents. They have ruined my social lifestyle. Life would be so much easier for me if I lived on my own, or had another kind of family. I may sound like a little dramatic girl, but it's the truth, and I don't care what anyone says about "It's because your parents love you" bullshit, they it do to torture me on purpose. I hate being the middle child of this racist, stupid, family. I need to get out of here......

Goodies?!

So I just realized that time has flew by reallyyy fast and that means that my grandparents are coming home tomorrow... can you believe that was already two and a half weeks?! I'm kinda dreading them coming back because I like the way it is right now...kind of haha.. but then excited because I hope my grandma brings my goodies! haha

I'm just looking foward to that. :P But hopefully the sizes are right and stuff because Filipinos over there are friken tiny! and I'm even tiny myself! Goodness!!! haha but yeah....once they're back, it goes back to the normal way... (no more leaving at random nights with Gus =[) lol

So yeah... on top of that...my Spring Break sucks!! I want to go to the beach or something hahaha


<3

It's that time of the season yet again

It's too hot! uGh... i wake up cranky because of the stupid heat going inside my room from my window... it was all cool last night too when my bro and I decided to turn on the AC hahaha.
but yeah.... it's getting warmer and warmer by the day and soon enough i'll probably get dark as well. =[ Hopefully I don't though! I'm not living in the desert anymoreeee so we'll see! hahaha

Btw my spring break is boring.... the weekend was fun but now it's boring!

My parents ruin my life.. lol... I need to get out of here ASAP!

Finally!

One more day of midterms and then its...


SPRING BREAK!! WOOWOO

Finally....lol

Very Random

So today I was at the mall with my mom and my sister and we were at Payless. I was looking at the shoes and my mom randomly tells me that I need high heels when I'm with Gus because he is so tall that I need to reach up to his level. LOL. I was like wtf??? random much?? ON TOP OF THAT... she asked me if me and him were serious....like in a serious relationship...and I was scared to answer because I wouldn't know how she would react...but I said yeah and she was like acting weird...LOL. She was like "seriously?" and I said yeah... and she kept saying "You serious serious? seriously?" LOL I'm like....YESSS GOODNESS hahaha...

SO she RANDOMLY says, "Gus needs to meet the rest of the family...I should invite him to our next gathering..." So this is me.."0_____0'' LOL like she was thinking what our next family gathering would be.... and she wants him to come...I was seriously surprised when she said that. LOL. Was it because I said we were serious? hahaha... I've wanted Gus to meet my whole family from the start...and I was just scared because I didn't think they would let me. =[ But hearing that from my mom makes me feel even better! My mom likes him haha and she seems serious when she mentioned it...but it's mostly my dad...but PFT who gives a crap about what he thinks lmao...

That made my day lol.
So now I'm looking foward to a next family gathering. =]

My first alcoholic drink...

Before I go into my little story..school sucks butt! Hopefully I passed my History test. I tried my best to study for the test haha...So hopefully it was good enough to pass! I'm considering of dropping that class if I can't get my head together in passing that stupid class... who knows, I had that same thought with Anthro last semester, and I ended up passing with a B! ahaha... Just wish me luck =[.

So on Sunday Gus picked me up and his mom decided to buy us drinks cuz it was Gus's birthday! hahaha So like of course I've only had a tiny sip here and there and that night was my first night.. oh boyy hahaha I was really thirsty and his mom got Smirnoff and B&J's wine coolers and stuff... not big of course cuz Gus was taking me home right after...good thing I didn't drive! lol...Well anyway...I downed my first bottle pretty quickly. I was pretty thirsty ahahah! It was strawberry flavored :P I don't think that i'll be like a hardcore drinker by just drinking the drink itself. For one, I really don't like the taste of regular beer, it's nasty, and Second of all, the other drinks out there taste gross as well! LOL sorry I'm sissy =[ So I can totally see me go after the girly drinks whether it's like mixed into something or wine coolers! And drinking with Gus's mom is fun hahaha. Ok back to my story, so after I finished my first bottle I started feeling it. I guess I finally experienced the "buzzed" mode hahaha. And then they forced me to finish the second bottle and I did. And geezzzz alcohol makes you full and bloated! Good thing i didn't throw up though! hahaha. But I did kind of notice that I was out of it after finishing my second one... LOL Gus knew it too, he said I was drunk D: I probably was anyway since my tolerance is so low lmfao... but yeah...good times... imagine me super drunk hahaha. It was fun though, now that I'm talking about this I'm actually craving for a strawberry drink! LOL but yeah...there's always a first for everything. =]


Now I'm tired.... I need my spring break already!!

Gotta Love Them!

So the weirdest words came out of grandpa's mouth today:

*Answers phone* Lolo: "Hello?"
*Hangs up* Lolo: "I don't have a automobile goddammit!" (exactly in English with his Filipino accent)

I started cracking up to myself LOL! I've never hear my grandpa cuss in English lmaooooo it's so funny

Anyways they are finally leaving tonight to go to the Philippines and it's about freaking time! They have this "Philippines fever" ever since they moved over hear -_- lol. But that means no grandparents for 2 and a half weeks ;x yipee! Which somewhat means that I kind of get some freedom, but then again my parents will always ALWAYS be around -_-... lol but oh well! hahaha. Hopefully they get me what I asked for when they come back ;x. I asked for V necks if they have some, a cardigan if they have some, a hoodie if they have some, and skinny jeans ;x....I haven't gone shopping since last summer so shut up! hahaha I need new clothes dammit =[

So yesterday I saw Gus's mom yesterday :D. And she brought me goodies! haha. I didn't want her to give me a lot, but she did. =]]]] I love her haha. So she got me bracelets from Mexico and handmade bags as well! I'm thinking about wearing one to school :P and it's funny because the bracelets she gave me were so cute. There were two pairs and each of them had my name made on it and Gus's name. LOL and I was confused...was I suppose to wear a bracelet with his name on it? o.o or with mine? So I just wore mine anyway cuz it looked like it was meant for me and Gus to have one with our own names. LOL so I gave one of them with his name on it and we both wore it hahaha. But yeah I love presents from Mexico! OH and his mom gave me a cellphone holder with a little girl LOL cuz she said I was little haha. Last year she gave me this little backpack and a little pin with a tall guy and girl rofl it was cute and I still use it! haha I even have a sumbrero from my friend Sam when he went to Mexico as well. I asked him to get me one and he did lmao! It's in my room in Victorville though D; lol....

but yeah... I love them! Now time to wait for my things from the Philippines haha.

I'm going international ;]