Wednesday, March 25, 2009

This week...

This week has been somewhat alright and somewhat lame! lol...
I did TERRIBLE on my test and midterm...
I didn't go to Psych the other day, and I didn't go to school today and I was dying to know what my results were...but i'll check next week...IM SO HORRIBLE LOL.. D:
but it's ok....my friends and bf make it fun =] gotta love them!

So I ran out of...

and I need it! Without this stuff....my hair smells like the outdoors, and it doesn't liven up =[.... my hair is so flat without it! I NEED SOME! hahahaha

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Random

It's weird how so many plane crashes have occurred for the past month, or even days. It's weird seeing how many people try to "escape" from their lives and pretend that they are dead, or when a little trip turns into a tragedy. It just makes me sad hearing about these things. I always wonder if there is someone behind these crashes who intentionally ruin the engines? Or it just happens to be their destiny. Idk. I think too much haha.

Other than that random thought, my week after that previous blog I wrote was better. Me and Gus made up, of course. :P But yeah.. and so far my weekend has been boringgggg. On top of that, I need to study all day today for my Political Science Midterm and History Test! D: UGHH those are my worst subjects everrr and they happen to have a test on the same days -__-. Hopefully I can pull it off though =\.

Anyways time to hit the books!


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Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Things happen for a reason...

So my weekend has had its ups and downs...lol. Last night was the shittiest nights yet again. I'm so hormonal it's sooo not me LOL. Anyways, Gus and I had an argument. I'd have to say it was pretty stupid too. But whatever, I'm just tired of the bullshit going on. I'm sick and tired of crying over nothing. I hate when I feel like im doing something wrong, and then it just gets to me. I hate when I feel like I'm not taken so seriously with everything I say. And it's not just Gus, it's my parents as well. I hate when I have all these thoughts in my head that I wanna just tell someone, but I can't because no one will understand. So it makes me angry. When I usually get angry I end up crying and shit. So that's how I was Sunday night...I couldn't stop. It's like wtf...I'm so friken pissed off right now and it's really getting to me. I just need that comfort and it's not there. =[

So anyways the thing that made me feel a little better is when...I woke up this morning...thinking about all the things that just happened...and my eyes were all puffy and I had to go to school. I took a shower hoping that it makes it better, and once I got out, I started busting out crying...UGHHHH...and I constantly look at my phone and shit...and like I got a text message hoping it was from him...but it wasn't...instead...it was from someone better...Ms. Tropea!!

Her text message said "God saw you struggling. He says its over. A blessin is coming your way. If you believe in God send to ten people.." And you know how the rest goes...Ms. Tropea sent it RIGHT while I was crying and stuff...and it made me smile just reading that. It makes me realize of how much she cares and stuff...even though it was just a chain text...I felt like God was calling out to me for a reason. By then, it made me realize that I need to stop this pain.. I need to make myself feel better because I deserve it...

I want to go back home to where my heart is.....Victorville....I miss everyone there oh so much...and im crying again wtf!!

I keep telling myself "No more tears..." but this time these tears are for comfort...BAH....fak life...especially mine....

but yeah...im gonna try my best to not cry over a boy....it may be hard cuz im a girl...but I know I can fight it!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Good times!

So today was alright. Besides waking up late and so close to not getting in class on time lol...It was like "run into people from fall semester day" or something. hahaha. I swearrrrr.... so i was walking to the bookstore, to buy a scantron, and I ran into Albert! hahaha. It was soooo random and surprisingly he still remembers me! So we talked for a bit and told me how Adrian randomly texted him saying that he was going out with Mary (at the time and LOL Mary I know it's very random). And like while we were talking, I ran into this guy, Michael, from my math class and he said hi to me too! hahaha. It makes me feel happy and better knowing that everyone still remembers you LOL. Usually others like pretend that you don't exist LOL. Not only has that happened twice, I was walking to my car and this car stopped to let me walk by, and it turned out to be this guy that I randomly talk to from a friend in my old Anthropology class....if that made sense hahaha. But yeah! it was crazyyyy and it was all in one day :P

Oh and Jeremy bought me lunch and I ate out with both Jeremy and Tony today....so i finally got my orange chicken! hahaha (sorry Mary :[ ) Another thing... I took a quiz in my history class today and it feels like I didn't do so well, so I hope I at least pass. =\ lol.

The only thing that ruined the rest of my day was my grandma's cooking! UGH LOL. So she cooks this Filipino sausage right.. and my grandpa was saying how it was hard, so I tried it for myself and what do you know...IT'S ROCK HARD....LOL. It ruined my appetite T_T especially when my grandma also cooked this fried fish....which her kind of fried fish is like HARD FISH....and that's all they had. =[...so i chose the fish...lol. I didn't eat much for dinner, but I can't tell if im still hungry or not...hahaha


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Monday, March 9, 2009

What I think...

So my weekend was pretty awesome lol. On Friday, since I didn't have school, I got to hang out with Gus again. :D We went running like always haha and just hung out with his friends. It was pretty cool. OH and we went to lollicup and I was soooo amazed because they have small boba!! It was sooo cute and awesome haha and I believe it was cheaper than the normal size ones. Right now theres a sale going and it's if you buy one boba milk tea you get the second boba milk tea for free! So Gus and I both got it. haha. (Now im craving for some D:) But anyways, that Friday was awesome and I was super tired because of all the running. hahaha.

On Saturday, I did some house stuff like do my laundry, clean my room, and I actually WASHED my car. hahaha. But I was pissed today because I was driving to school this morning and it started sprinkling and I was like wtf!!! D: but it still looks clean so it's ok for now. lol. Oh and my brother and nephew came over today too and so I was playing with my nephew while I was attempting to do my political science homework haha.

On Sunday, it was my official one year anniversary with Gus. =] So I decided to come over to his house and hang out with him! At first I gave him a call and asked where he was at... and he was with his parents at some swap meet and I got to his house before he did. LOL. So it was just his sister and I and we were both talking and stuff and yeahh she's cool. I like her. I like his whole family! lol. They're so nice to me. When Gus and his parents finally came back we went to eat out at some chinese buffet (the same one we went out to eat at on Valentine's Day with his family as well). His dad LOVES that place hahaha and I have to admit, that is the best buffet I have ever eaten at compared to others(usually they are dry and yucky lol). After that, we went to Ikea! hahaha. I want an Ikea home. =[ And when I make some money i'll make sure of it! haha. Gus's mom said it was family day that day! lmao.

When she said that, it made me feel like I'm appretiated more to them compared to my own family. Sad huh? My family doesn't give a crap about me whatsoever. And when they do, their reasonings and "rules" are just so ignorant, that even stricter parents are better than them! I just love his family. They are nice to me, they feed me when they have food haha, they talk to me, they take me in as part of their family. Like for me, I love that feeling of "family" lol especially when they take me in. Idk. I love my parents but things like that never really happen. Usually, it would be "rare". lol. It's always funny when Gus's mom says that she's my "mother-in-law" LMAO it makes me laugh but in a good way. Good thing Gus isn't around when she says it or else who would of been freaking out. LMAO. Good times.


Anyways in changing the subject about what else I feel... I used this have this reallyyy good friend of mine. She was someone who would listen to my problems and give me advice or just make me happy and stuff. It's been like that since we've met. Now she has changed. She would talk about how she would never be like those typically Viet girls (she's Viet) and yet lately, she's been acting like one. What's the typical? Well the girls who act super girly, rich, flirts with a lot boys, talk like she's black, and wear a lottt of makeup. She's turning into them. I'm not being racist or stereotypical or anything, but she's becoming like them! She's been very cocky, thinks that she's all that, thinks that she's on top of the whole community. On top of that, she's Canadian. I don't need to give more detail about how I know her and where I met her and stuff we will just leave it at that. I totally understand that America is in deep shit right now with the whole economy crisis, and here she is RUBBING into our faces that there are no problems going on in Canada and brags about how much money she has and how she her parents own two BIG houses(when she doesnt even need both). I wasn't asking for advice or sympathy about our money issues, I just wanted her to listen and stuff, and she brags and brags about her lifestyle. She doesn't even go to college and all she does it work.(Apparently I guess she's too cool for school lol). She's really pretty when she wears makeup and all, but her body is skinny like a twig(not even joking). But then I remember her talking about how "Canadians have a better weight control" compared to America when were all fat and dying. Im sorry, but after seeing her in person as well as her friends, Canada has some serious anorexia issues. LOL. I really thought she was someone different that I can talk to. But after a long period of time, she has changed dramatically. My brother sees it as well. Hopefully one day she realizes that her good friends that has been with her through thick and think were the best friends she has ever had. So all I have to say is that im over it. Im tired of trying to talk to her. Im tired of being treated like just "another" person and I'm tired of when she completely ignores people that I know. Im just tired of trying, so instead once she realizes about how much she has changed and comes back to us, then maybe i'll consider it.

Oh and another note, I've read in my English class a letter from his writer who lives in Canada and she is viewing our world today. In one of her arguments, she is telling us Americans how we need to build back our economy because everyone depends on us. So for my fellow friend who says Canada is not in a crisis....it will HIT you one day when you realize that your people need us in order to stay in tact. Hopefully you understand that being rich is meaningful than being a rich snob. I hope you will understand one day when I always call you rich to me. Just be thankful that you have that much money as for now. I just hope your wise with it as well. You're better than that. I know you are, but I guess your true self came out. But hey, no matter what you'll still be considered as a friend to me.

BTW im so tired. I think the stupid daylight savings time is killing my sleeping pattern haha. I'll get used to it, I hope. D:

Anyways I know this is superrrr long but if you're willing to read this then go ahead! I just needed to express haha.

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Monday, March 2, 2009

Hello!

So I know a whole bunch of you read my blogs on myspace. How do I know? It's because it tells me how many people view my stuff! Whether I tell you or not, there is always someone reading. You nosy people! LOL jk

I was like "eh what the heck" and so I've decided to make a blogspot :D

So here I am. :D haha

A lot of my close friends have drifted away living their own lives, while I'm here sitting on my lazy butt on the computer all day. I have NO life at all LOL. So if I can't turn to a friend or even my boyfriend for my stupid little problems, why don't I just write about it?! That way, for those who are really interested will read about my situations and I can feel better myself by ranting out to the cyber world. I mean, I used to do it all the time back when xangas were cool haha so why not? :P

I am sure only a few of you will have the time to read these things about me, and I am not gonna tell the whole world to read it. I am only gonna ask who is interested. That's why I asked you if you were really interested then message me and I would give you the link! LOL. If you feel like you need to send it to a friend then go ahead. At least more people will be interested about my non-exciting, boring life. If that makes sense haha.

Anyways well that is that. More blogs will come up soon I promise. :D


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